Hey!
I want to use this to explain, vent, and update my experiences with IOP.
Today was great. It is a much better IOP than the other hospital's IOP that I have twice attended. It was a small and therefore fairly intimate room where I (imagine that!!!) had no problem sharing. I gave them a lesson in bipolar disorder and, mostly, psychosis because they asked me many questions.
Group ended heavily because we ended on a discouraging note but overall it was a positive experience.
Now that I have started this journey, my concern is, is this a waste of time; my concern is am I strongly burdoning my family for the next four weeks for no reason at all?. What affect can group therapy possibly have on psychotic and suicidal thinking? Four weeks of three daily hours of sanity? Is that all? My pdoc and therapist both encouraged this. They are confident that it may empower my mind. And, they believe I can conquer this mess of suicidality and psychosis through the tried an true method of intensive therapy. I'm not so sure. You can call me pessimistic (and probably are) and a complainer but now that I am doing this, I think, how is this going to prevent me from hearing voices? How is this going to dilute thoughts such as
How is this going to combat my largest struggles? What do you think? Am I being a pessimist for no reason?