hi Sunybear! ((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))

yep! stuffing anger or any feeling can wreak havoc! and can definitely manifest itself physically.

i was just diagnosed with TMJ (long name for jaw pain caused by grinding teeth and/or clenching jaw)...i didn't even realize i was clenching my jaw till the doc told me (i thought i had an ear ache) i'm stressed at work and now i catch myself clenching.

i'm sure some of your physical pain is due to not being able to deal with those feelings! but those are definitely tough feelings to deal with!!!! i'm sure that will take time!

be gentle and understanding with your adult self!!!! chances are you weren't allowed to show your feelings when you were a little girl being abused and subsquently didn't learn how to deal with those feelings in a healthy way. that's going to take time.

For now maybe it is just enough that you acknowledge that the little girl you were was abused!! Some people can't do that!! Feeling for her will come in time.

Take care!