I've had no severe psychosis issues like i used to have.. (like making up my own stories((thats a terrible way to describe it.. i fully believed these stories and hallucinated enough that i was reading these text messages and seeing things))).. i've not had a similar instance since my IOP.... I did some thing there with paddles in my hands.. therapist would talk and send signals to the pads.. I'm a huge pessimist and don't believe in all this "voodoo" nonsense... however.. I walked out of the hospital in SHOCK... it felt like I had just smoked a bag of weed but without all the "stoned feeling".just a crazy body buzz. I had to go home and rest afterwards.... I also opened up in IOP way more then I ever dreamed I would... it was an experience I'll never forget... not sure if it's the med combination that was changed... the IOP or a combination of both (what I believe) that has really helped me live a life with less paranoia etc..
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Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel... it's just a freight train coming your way.
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