Yeah that's me. An outcast everywhere I go. No matter how hard I try I get nowhere. Perhaps this was where I belonged from start. I'm gonna be fired soon I'm guessing and my school work is starting to slack and fail.

Ah, what is the point. This is all pointless. It's the blind leading the blind. I try the meds and things get better and now things are worse. The more help I seek the worse I get. My mind tells me they are deceiving me. Everyone is deceiving. Liars. Over-exaggerating themselves all the time. Their emotions are fake and they try to use them as tools to manipulate.

"Killing yourself is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." That is what the counselor I saw yesterday told me. Well. When does it drift from being a temporary problem to a permanent problem. A never ending problem.

My safety blankets pulled out from under me and things constantly taken away one by one.

Head is so dark lately.