Yes, I understand this feeling very well. I feel bad for feeling bad all the time. When she asks me how I'm doing, I struggle to tell her the truth. Lately I've felt pretty alone in my life and like I'm not worth the air I breathe. It's hard to sound like a broken record. No one wants someone who feels depressed all the time. So sometimes I don't tell all, but she can usually see through it. That's part of why I struggle with the thought of leaving her. She knows me too well. And I'm getting to the point of pretty much knowing what she's going to say about things without having to ask her.