I think your feelings towards your therapist are a bit extreme but understandable. You start therapy in a time of need. If it is a good therapists that helps you to feel better then of course you are going to feel this way. In a way a therapist can be a savior and when the thought that it will all end eventually kicks in it is scary but along with being a good therapist he should be helping you to get on with out him, that should be part of the therapy. I know the connection you feel with your therapist. I am so happy with my therapist and I leave his office on Monday afternoons saying to myself " OK I just have to make it to next Monday" Im still in the stage of needing help, and lots of it so the thought of ending therapy doesnt click yet but I know that when it is time for therapy to stop I will be in a place where Im ok with that because with the help of my therapist I will be ok to face the world on my own and face my struggles on my own because of what my therapist has helped me to achieve in my sessions. If you are not ready to stop therapy then don't. You will know when you are good to stop and not need him anymore. BEst of luck to you.