Hi LittleMouse

i absolutely feel the same as you about my T... it is often on my mind that i am way too attached to her... i love her intensely... i think on some level i am even “in love” with her... talking about this attachment and my fear of losing her has been a huge part of my therapy... i think it probably took me a year before i could actually bring myself to tell her exactly how i felt... to be totally honest about the depth of attachment i feel... and all the fear and anxiety i have over losing her...

obviously its your choice whether you talk to your T about this, but i would say from my experience it proved to be very helpful having it out in the open... being able to talk about it felt great... i think somehow it felt like something i should feel guilty about, but T made it feel normal...

like you i cant even begin to think about life after therapy... not seeing T anymore... but maybe it is still early days for both of us in therapy... the intensity of attachment i feel was there right from the start... and i was always worried about what it meant, how i would cope without her... but lately i have tried to not let those thoughts get out of control...

i have found that loving someone so much gives me such an incredible power to get through the difficult times... i want to use that power, the positive force, to overcome the anxiety and fears that have plagued me for so long...

i don’t ever lose sight of the fact that this relationship is not infinite... there will be an end... and however attached i am it will hurt like hell... but hopefully i will be stronger then... more able to handle it... that is the plan anyway!

i hope you are able to talk to your T about your feelings of attachment... i am sure he will not be shocked... and i hope very much it will make you feel better about it... it is scary like you said... but talking about how we feel, sharing those fears can only be a good thing...

take care... Nikki x