Hello wizkid. I'm on a borrowed computer at the moment and won't have the opportunity to read your post as thoroughly as it deserves for at least a few days. I will however.

In the interim, there are a few threads here that you may find interesting. The first would be Schizophrenia and Hope; the second would be Presumed Causes of Psychosis and/or Schizophrenia. Both of those might provide some insights that would allow you to constructively criticize your own work.