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ameliaxxx · Jun 27, 2015, 07:02 PM

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Originally Posted by Chuva

I started at 22. The first time, the emotional pain was so unbearable that I needed some kind of relief. And a relief it was.

Possible trigger:

After that, I almost always self-harmed because I couldn't feel my body, thought I was dead (doctors tell me it was derealization), and I needed a way to confirm I was actually alive. I couldn't feel the pain, but the blood soothed me.

PS. Just like ShaggyChic, I don't act on my urges anymore. I haven't self-harmed for 9 years now. But I too do fantasize about it.

I'm sorry! I'm glad it's been 9 yrs though since!

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