It's not jumping to conclusions, I just always feel let down or lied to. Can't find anyone to relate to and those I do, well they don't. I keep tricking myself it seems. My emotions are an act now. Adopting a different act depending on the situation and then some can seem to tell that when I talk to them on here.

Always telling me there is a wall.

I can't bring my wall down but then why would I? Why would I want to bring my wall down. They seem to want me to but why would I. Honestly don't know what the point would be to have my wall down. Even when I think it is down it's not.