Thank you Hooligan :-)

I spent the full night explaining things to him, saying why i did things that i did, and it seems ok for now.. He still blame me for not trying to be normal and acting like a sane person.. He said i acting paranoid and it's not fun talking with me anymore when i become paranoid..

I feel like i never belonging to anyone..so i guess i just wanted to hold too tightly and makes people suffocated..