I don't feel bitter, I feel hollow. I'm not sure who I could have become were the circumstances different. I know that people who have grown up in foster care or adoptive families have their own set of challenges and hardships. Even so, I have wished for a very long time that I had been fostered or adopted by another family. So ... while I do not feel bitterness, I do feel envious or jealous of those who were provided a warm, loving and safe foster or adoptive homes. I feel pretty pathetic saying that - I know realisticly that many people who have gone through 'the system' have been impacted on negatively. Still, that feeling of envy remains deep inside me.