Awww, Moon. I felt so similar to you when I was 17. You know what? It might not seem as though a therapist is helping... but if you keep going, and then you look back in retrospect, you will see that it did. What I'm trying to say is that when you're in that state it is very difficult to take a step back and see if something is working. But if you work hard and then you are able to step back in a couple of months, or even a year, you will see the improvements. I have been with my therapist for almost two years now and it wasn't until the first year passed that I was able to step back and say... ooohhhh... now I get it! I remember when I was 17... That it was so hard... because things are still so new... you need to grow into your understanding of therapy... but you will get it... you just have to keep working. I remember when I was 17 and all my friends were having fun, going out, thinking about prom, graduating, etc... I couldn't leave the house because of my panic attacks and depression. I totally understand what you're going through Moon.