I'm totally stresssing lately, and have slipped up a few times with my sh. I had been doing ok without it for a few weeks, but I can't stop thinking about it today. I'm not able to find a good alternative release right now. I was hoping to talk to someone on the crisis chats, but I waited for over an hour and still had 2 people in front of me.

I shouldn't give in, but there's no immediate accountability anyway, so it doesn't really matter anymore (one of the pit-falls of giving up sh b/c for "outside" reasons only)...