I was going to copy paste most f what I just posted in the intro forum, but apparently it doesn't show up right away, so I'll try to recall everything again.
Well, basically I've been dealing with these feelings on and off for a while.
Maybe it's a natural occurance as you get older and start caring less of what others think and start caring more about trying to correct the errors of the world. Perhaps I'm just getting overly frustrated with how things are and feeling powerless to change them.
But either way, I've come to the realization that I need to little 'mischievous' things to quench these inner feelings, otherwise I might do something worse (I was a big fan of the show 'Dexter'). Hence my profile name. I've always been a secretive person. An example of these 'mischievous' actions would be simply having a secret to myself; whether it's sneaking a bite of something I should'nt be eating, or a puff of a cigarette, sneaking a mark of vandalism/graffiti or something other small slight against someone who I'm annoyed with. I came to this realization a few weeks ago when I did something when in a fould mood about something. I started this profile several days ago and haven't really had the time to post since then. I used to do a bit of this back when I used to smoke and drink regularly, several years back I gave up smoking, drugs and heavy drinking. I attributed these actions to my intoxicated self, but have realized that these feelings and thoughts occur naturally anyway while sober. I've always considered myself a fairly good person, moralistic and such, but perhaps I'm not afterall? I guess I really get upset when I see people being thoughtlessly wasteful, or greedy and selfish and hurtful towards others.I guess my inner vigilante gets triggered, I get angry when said justice is not properly doled out. These little mischievous things I guess are a new found outlet of mine I suppose.