It breaks my heart to read your entry but I feel like I typed it myself.

I am 30 and am... Dammit I don't want to say it... But I am disabled. As a former athlete, go getter, previous mountain mover ([emoji6]) I am lost. But worse, my friends and family do not understand. When I can't show at a function because I am hurting... They don't understand that it means that I spent 3 hours showering, getting ready, sweating thru 3 outfits tying to fix my hair... Only to get to my car to go and find that I am not strong enough to push in my clutch... And cancel. They think I'm lazy and just being depressed.

The depression part is so true. I've always had a challenging agenda growing up so I'm mentally tough... But I'm losing site of the light at the end of my tunnel. Living in pain alllll the time doesn't allow your mind to ever rest. It is killing me.

So, I was wondering.... How do you handle the mental side? I've found that Elkhart tolles books have really helped me and mediation, while challenging can be effective for me. But in tired of my ideas... Got any tips or secrets to share with a fellow sufferer?

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