i have never been able to envision things for myself as far as the future, goals, what i want/would like for myself relationship wise, career wise, etc.

sometimes though, i see other versions of myself in my head that are married or these ideas come into my head that randomly getting married and living a different life could just somehow happen. but i don't know if that is a type of daydreaming and normal and how others generally see things or it is related to dissociation. the versions i see in my head are not me, not even looks wise, and not personality wise either. and they don't live things outwardly either, so i don't know 'what' it is. any ideas? it just leaves me feeling a bit confused and can actually cause me to feel anxious and slightly dissociated thinking about it.