right now i just want to crawl into a hole and hid and sleep i'm so anxious my body feels weird and i'm not sure if it's anxiety related and i don't have the funds to see a doctor i feel so unprotected and with my family gone it's worse i try so hard to control my nerves and for a moment it seems to work then it returns i don't have the desire or energy to do anything i just want the days to go by for my fam to return so i can be at peace a little my father is the one person in the whole who reasures me that i'm just being anxious without him here to comfort me i feel really upset at least with him if he sees i'm really not well he will say it and take to the emergency room my sister won't do it or saty with me i feel so alone and nervous and frightened !