I'm starting to get paranoid like thinking things are there and then upon second glance turning over and then they are no longer there. I'm feeling very out of it and starting to dissociate. I couldn't get to sleep until 4 the last couple of nights and I don't know if its my lack of sleep that's causing this. I don't think I'm becoming manic because I don't feel elated or giddy. I just took my risperdal so hopefully that helps. My breathing has also been fast today and being in light feels blinding. I have had increased anxiety the last couple of days and this feels like a recipe for disaster.