I was in a horrific plane accident that I don't remember well. I just know it killed my dad and brother and put my mom in a hospital for months because it sort of crushed her in her seat. The only thing I was told was that I was standing there like a hero helping my mom when the search workers came. Shortly after the plane crash, my older cousin took care of me and my brother who also survived the crash and he sexually abused us. I also, don't remember a lot of it. My brother will say things like, "do you remember the time Alex tried to drown you?" And I was like, "no." I also have a terrible memory and expanses of time I don't remember. One year on vacation to Florida, I was on the other side of town and had bought girls clothes and had no idea how I got them and how I got to the other side of town. I also hear the voice of Alex, who molested me, telling me to do things like kill animals or cut myself or kill myself. I also daydream alot about being this blonde girl named Racheal who I've never met. help.