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Old Jun 28, 2015, 11:17 PM
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Is self-neglect common among people who self-harm? Does anyone else do it to the point where they can barely function? My house has gotten so bad I have been sleeping in a recliner for months because my bedroom is too disgusting and this has been repeating over and over and over since I moved out at 18. I have such trouble with basic self-care and I barely function most of the time.

I do things constantly because I just don't care enough to keep myself safe. I don't clean my cuts that are deep enough for stitches, but I don't get them stitched most of the time either. I let even the deep wounds gape without a bandaid under my pants or sleeves and they get covered with fluff and stuff. Last time I only put on a bandaid because my therapist was freaking out about infection and said at least put a bandaid if I refused to get stitches. I also use razor blades I keep on my horribly filthy floor, and I think that's part of it. It adds an element of disrespect to it, if that makes any sense.

I have bad picking issues and I do it with filthy hands even though there is sanitizer everywhere. I get infections and in a way I kind of like it. The more germy my hands might be the better it feels.

I eat horribly just because I find it hard to care enough to feed my body the things it needs. I have trouble taking meds for anything that isn't psych related (because I DO want to feel better, but I don't care about my body). I have trouble making myself go to work or school or anything and have failed over and over because I just don't care enough about myself to take care of myself and make sure I have money.

My credit is horrible, I just declared bankruptcy with a debt of almost 100k. I knew what I was doing when I ran up my credit, that I could never pay it and it would ruin my credit score, but I didn't care.

I can name a million ways I disrespect myself and don't look after myself. Don't take care of myself when I'm sick, didn't take care of myself after surgery, etc.

Anyone else? In a way I find this the worst because it's a whole attitude. I'm working on changing the self-harm but the other stuff seems worse.
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