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Old Jun 28, 2015, 11:32 PM
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Location: Allentown, PA
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Originally Posted by bpenniman View Post
I'm starting to get paranoid like thinking things are there and then upon second glance turning over and then they are no longer there. I'm feeling very out of it and starting to dissociate. I couldn't get to sleep until 4 the last couple of nights and I don't know if its my lack of sleep that's causing this. I don't think I'm becoming manic because I don't feel elated or giddy. I just took my risperdal so hopefully that helps. My breathing has also been fast today and being in light feels blinding. I have had increased anxiety the last couple of days and this feels like a recipe for disaster.
I was getting ready to post my own problems with feeling like that and then I seen your thread so I thought I would read yours as well.

I know how you are feeling all too well right now. For me, it started last wednesday with two panic attacks roughly within a half an hour apart. I wasn't up set or anything and they just seemed to come out of no where. It started with a tight feeling in my chest, then difficulty breathing and tears starting to form. Next thing I knew I was hyperventilating and crying hysterically. It felt like it lasted for ever when it was probably no more than three minutes.

Then today when I was getting ready to leave my house to go to work I just started to feel really off, I felt paranoid, lights were to bright and sounds were too loud. I couldn't catch my breath. I began to feel really anxious, paranoid, uneasy, panicking, and a bunch of other unpleasant feelings. I thought people were looking at my strange, I felt like I was in some kind of fog and feeling like I was going to dissociate. (I do have a dissociative disorder as well). My mind felt hazy I felt terribly unstable. I couldn't tolerate people being by me or talking to me or even just someone texting me.

Luckily, I work in a group home with only two clients and only 1 of them was in their home today and I also got to work by myself which did kind of help my uneasiness slightly. I started writing in my journal (when I tend to take to work at times) and then even though I did not want to try to interact with other people or socialize in away I kinda forced myself to call a friend or two to try to just have a simple, normal conversation to, to take my mind off of how I was feeling. And it did help a little bit.

Maybe you can try journaling and find anything that may distract you for a little to give you a chance to calm yourself down. It may only help you a little but it may also help you a lot. Any relief is better than none at all.

I hope you feel better.
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Dx: Bipolar 1, ADD, GAD, Dissociative Disorder, Insomnia


Meds: Seroquel 100mg & 25mg, Trazodone 300mg, Thiothixene 5mg, Concerta CR 36mg
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