My T helped me learn about the negative feelings we all have by having me "contemplate" them, one a week :-) The first week I was to think about "humiliation" and it was like thinking about "red cars" -- suddenly, it was everywhere :-) One really bad humiliation happened to show me my anger (a boss made me cry) and a lot of things just "clicked" from then on. The next week my T had me think about "disappointment" and again, almost immediately my husband disappointed me :-( But that too ended happily because I learned that a lot of my expectations were linked to negative things I had picked up from my stepmother (my abuser). I was judging my husband the way my stepmother had "taught" me to judge and it wasn't pretty :-) So, there was no way my husband could NOT disappoint me! I had set him up!

So, maybe find a list of negative feelings http://eqi.org/cnfs.htm and look at one or two in your journal if you have one or just think about them and various occasions you remember and are going through now. Theoretically, it could make you angry to not be able to get angry :-) since that's a God-given part of your emotional makeup. Get angry that you were forced to stuff your negative emotions in order to protect yourself. Now you are depressed and have physical issues as a result. How dare an adult do that to the child you?!!