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Originally Posted by ak482
I feel like I'm getting closer to the end of the line. My anxiety, as much as I work on it in therapy, still overwhelms me. I haven't licked it yet to the point that I can interview successfully for a job or get a girlfriend. Every day I see friends having relationships and knowing I am the ONLY male my age who has not even come close to having sex or anything approaching intimacy.
I feel like as much as I'm trying, I'm taking 3 steps backwards each time. I really think I need to
, not immediately, but that day is coming soon  |
Hi AK,
It is unfair that you have put that deadline for yourself as positive outcomes do not depend enterily on yourself. If you said, for example, "I establish a deadline for me to stop eating junk food" I would understand, although even eating junk food sometimes get out of control and we cannot stop unless we get help for it. But having a girlfriend or getting a job depend on several factors. You are a factor among others. I am not sure this deadline is helping you at all.
Many of us have thought alike, I mean living is so painful for some of us that we think that dying is the best solution. In that regard, I hear and feel your pain, and I respect you and your decision. To me, it is your right to make a decision about continue living or not.
But also I deeply feel you have the right to be happy. You have the right to achieve goals at your own path. You are not an unworthy freak because you have not gotten a job or a girlfriend yet. You have the right to be you, you have the right to be alive, no matter what.
Perhaps a change of environment will help for you to be free of some pressure.
I wish you the best and send you a big hug