I don't want to do this anymore... I don't want to work at my job anymore, I don't want to live anymore... I will never be able to love myself, I will always hate everything about myself. I can love others, but I will never love myself. I would kill myself except that would be merciful. Staying alive and suffering in sheer angony is what I deserve. I can't sleep at night, I have headaches, I am dizzy and worn out all the time. I am also all alone. I have no one. I want to be with my family but I can't be, because I can't afford to fly out there, and it is not a good setting for me to go and live there. Help help help help help help help me please