This is probably imprinted in your psyche from childhood,
thus: When we are very young and we don't get the loving we
should have got,we blame ourselves. Our parents are like Gods
to us,and we need them to survive,so it is unthinkable for the
child to blame them,it needs them for life itself; so it does the only thing it can see to do . . . it blames itself rather than see the
parents as lacking in any way. Problem is,that lie is stored in its
subconscious,and so even years later,it is STILL blaming self.
In short,it 'carries the can' for the parents inadequacy and failure
to love. This is NOT an opinion,this is fact. Start relationship
with child-self, and apologize for not knowing this. IT IS VERY
IMPORTANT YOU DO THIS FOR BOTH SAKES. DO NOT
THINK IT SILLY,IT IS VALID HEALING THERAPY!
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE