With a little more research I honestly think that the problem that I am having now is sort of an identity crisis. What I mean by this is that I am having a very difficult time dissolving the child identity in myself which is a major cause of negativity for myself. I am currently failing at letting go of this "child ego" and as a result, I am having a highly dysfunctional adult experience. This child-identity disallows the presence of my adult maturity that I am expected to have as the realities of an adult. I feel extremely sensitive and insecure about what I really want in life. I feel as if this is giving me a highly negative adult life experience. This is what creates a lot of insecurities, anxieties, and irresponsible behavior. I usually employ escapist methods such as drowning myself in entertainment or just coming home from my part time job and hiding in my bed room all day. Anytime I face a change in my life I usually employ the escapist methods above or keep my emotions all bottled up inside of me.
This entire experience has given me long periods of anxiety, depression, and insecurity, especially in deciding about where my future is headed.