I don't hair pull but would like to say hi, welcome to the forums. I was imbarrassed by the things I did for SI for a long time. Some of the things I did disgusted me afterwards. I finally came to terms with it all though. I decided that Yes I do this stuff, it was part of me and I refuse to be disgusted by myself. Now it is easier to tell my T what is going on, it is easier to face the situation because it doesn't shame me in to avoidance, and I think now I have a better chance of getting away from these behaviors. It is just a maladaptive coping device that I learned because as a child someone forgot to teach me constructive ways to deal with stuff. Now I just have to teach myself.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson