hey haven't written in a while my mood is better for the most part. still sad when alone. not going to church anymore. not sure as to why maybe angry with god for letting all this %&#@ happen. like no money no money no money. it takes money to do things to have meds top drive anywhere to do to dr. i could go on and on. but i won't..... on all my meds so maybe i need to tweak them next apt. because i still feel so down at times. listening to music on bravo channel something like save the earth lots of cool bands. music makes me feel better most of the time check it out it's on 18 hours straight