Thanks for the reply. I don't go to the places that he goes and I don't talk to the people that are his friends. I know I can block him from my cell but I don't want to and that's just a choice.
He is that's what he is. He's selfish and self-centered. I know he will come back at my door. Also, I know if I let him into my life, he will be good for a very short period of time, but then he will fall back to what he really is.
He's a mess. He needs help but he doesn't get the help. I don't want to be part of that mess anymore.
I'm having a plan for myself to make lots of friends and make myself busy.
It's interesting, with my broken foot, I get lots of attention. People talk to me and ask me how it happens and I have nice chat and conversation with them. Most interesting point is that lots of people have gone through the same kind of pain and broken bone and they sympathize with me.
Yes, I do miss him but thinking what he did last time, It's not good. I will stay strong with my decision.
He's done this many times with me and he is doing it again. He just wants to come to my home and sleep with me. I hate even thinking about it.
I pray to find a friend who will be my companionship soon. I'm trying to change my perspective of life and my view of seeing people.
This is a turning point in my life.