I understand Divine, thank you for listening, its hard because its not just the gf thing, yes that is hard for me , but its hard because i promised i wouldnt give away his issues, he trusted me with that and i cant betray him , we shared alot of secrets, things he only talked to me about and closeness , and then he was gone , next thing i know hes with someone, he was family to me above everything else , so its like a double whammy the gf thing but more so the not talking to me. I keep going over stuff , there was no signs, we were close, woke up and he disappeared. Struggling now.