Thank you for sharing this. Not many people have the opportunity to experience "true" psychoanalysis with the use of the couch and the analyst out of view. I felt like a fly on the wall!

I find it interesting that even though you slipped away to another time and had a different type of engagement with him, you are feeling the loss of him more in the time apart. Any thoughts on this? Is this why traditional psychoanalysis usually has the patient coming 4 or 5 days per week? Logically, one might think if a patient isn't looking at the analyst much and is lost mostly in the unconscious material, the therapist bond wouldn't be as strong, but it seemed to strengthen yours or at least make the absence more noticeable.

I'm curious now because I do therapy twice per week, and my T has said a couple of times that I would do better with a psychoanalytical approach with more sessions. I never asked why, but this makes me wonder. . .

Again, thanks for sharing!