It certainly sounds like you have DID, and I am so sorry for all that you have gone through. Its okay to be confused with life and oneself after experiences like you have had. I understand, I have similar things with me. I have holes in my memory as well, and even now have trouble remembering basic things or concentrating for periods of time. I havent had a separate identity with a completely different name though. In my mind, I dont even have a name, i cant relate to my own name given to me. Mine are different personalities with different opinions, lifestyles, etc. Or at least i think. Maybe you should look into a therapist, so that maybe you could get some help in moving on. You definitely deserve to.