Hey guys,

Thanks for the thought/concern; I'm not currently actively suicidal. I was, but I managed to force a crisis call to my T who did a remarkable job. We came up with a safety plan, she followed up the next day, with the option to contact again if necessary. Afterwards, I started taking things off of my wall in my room, and had the idea to just pack everything up. I didn't know where the idea came from, but its where the question originated. I have an appointment on Wednesday. Where it goes from there, I really don't know. But as for now, I am okay.

In regards to medicines, I actually have decided to come off of my antidepressant. I just decided, I don't care to take it anymore. Not sure I feel like dealing with much of anything anymore. I work at a hospital, so I know I shouldn't stop cold turkey, but it's day 6 and i'm committed to dealing with it. My manager doesn't think its a great idea, but she is aware and supportive.