Hi gostryter,

I’m so sorry you’re having such a hard time (and that you lost your cat.)

To answer one of your questions, yes, I have gone to a doctor while not in therapy and have shown my cutting. They did not put me in a hospital. I was very calm about it but serious. I made it a point to tell them that I was not suicidal but that I was struggling very badly and just needed someone to talk to. Obviously, they seem to treat suicidal patients more urgently. I told them that if I didn’t get help soon I was afraid I’d end up in a suicidal state. Saying this sped up the process a little bit but I think with all health care and referral type stuff it takes time. Mine took no more than 3 weeks though. While I waited I relied on walk in counseling that cost around $10 through places like Peace For Families. And the crisis lines were helpful with offering different options.

And try to not let your parent’s worry stop you from getting the help that you need. I can relate so well to how you shelter them from things like this. But <font color="green">you</font> and <font color="green">your life</font> is what matters right now and I hope you do what you have to do to get the help you need and deserve. Know that my thoughts are with you. I know it’s scary and frustrating, but don’t give up.

Big hugs. ~ Bee