Well this weekend went ok. It had its ups and downs but I'm going to concentrate on the ups. What's got me though is I have to sleep in the day and work at night. My wife and I are at such an uncertain point of whether or not to continue with separating. For me this week almost has sealed the deal. She told her boss she'd work 6 days straight without a day off without even asking or talking to me. That means I go from already not getting much sleep to near none. I just got through a bad manic episode and can feel I'm on the brink of a depression and I'm trying everything to hold it back. If you add the stress from my job, trying to take care of 4 kids almost by myself, and little to no sleep this week I somehow see a really bad depression in my near future. I don't know what to do. I just for once want someone to physically hold me and actually care not just use me for their own agenda. I think this turned into a half a$$ed rant but oh well. I know I'd be a lot worse if it wasn't for a few of my friends on here and for them I am grateful but looking at a screen isn't the same as a face to me anyways.