BabyPanda, I know life looks way too hard to handle, and I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. When a person is in so much pain that they think about suicide, it seems almost selfish for anyone to stand in their way. But that's exactly what everyone here, I included, want to do. Because a lot of us have been right where you are now. A lot of us have thought about ending our lives. I have. It hurts. It's hard. Life seems harder. But BabyPanda, we're all still here. We're here because there is some reason for everyone to live. I know that there's a reason for you too. Maybe it's how sad your parents would be, or how much you'd hurt your best friend. Because let me tell you something, BabyPanda. It would. It would hurt anyone you're close to, so much, and I'm sure that's hard for you to see, but it would. No one recovers after someone they love commits suicide. Maybe you don't believe me. I've been in situations where I wouldn't believe me either. But please. Hang on, even though it's hard. For the people who love you, if not for yourself right now. If no one else, hang on for me.
If you want to talk more you're welcome to PM me. I'll try my best to help you however you need me to. But please, please find someone to talk to about this. You matter. Your feelings matter. Don't ever let anyone or anything tell you differently.