Been a while since I last posted, but here goes.

I recently just got out of a relationship with a guy, so now I'm single. The thing is, during the end of the relationship, I kept on thinking what it would be like to have a relationship with a woman. The idea of being fully intimate with a woman excites me in many ways and I've progressively felt more and more compelled to try it.

I guess I should add that I'm a woman myself and though I've long since been accepting of my bisexuality, I've never been in a relationship with a woman before. The most I've ever did with the same gender was kiss a childhood friend when I was in second grade. It was my first kiss and something I still think about to this day.

There is a part of me compelled to get involved with a woman because I can go places and partake in PDA as a way to tell the naysayers that I'm who I am and damn well proud of it.

So, what's the problem you may ask? My parents. I live at home with them and though I know my mother would be more than accepting of my lifestyle, my father is more or less one of those conservative types. He hasn't said anything offensive about the LGBT community that I know of, but he tends to see things in a conservative light and holds his faith close to him. Did I also mention he's the most bull headed, stubborn man this side of the Mississippi? I swear, you could argue with him till you're blue in the face and still you'd get nowhere.

I guess I'm too afraid to come out to him for fear of some extremely negative reaction, in a nutshell. I'm just afraid of him not wanting me to stay in the house anymore, and since I have no place else to go, I'd be living on the streets. Or worse.

What should I do? I realize I'm rambling on and on here, and this post is fast becoming an increasingly huge block of text. For that I do apologize. I'm just conflicted here and would like some input.

I'm inclined to call my therapist and schedule a more immediate appointment to talk about this issue, but in the meantime, I'm journaling about this subject matter to clear my congested thoughts.