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Originally Posted by lunaticfringe
This reminds me of a few times I've visited the crisis center in my area needing to get into the hospital and was given a very hard time because I didn't SEEM like I was having a crisis...Like hello I wouldn't be here if I didn't need help it's not like I enjoy coming here. So now when I have to go there I really let them have it with my craziness instead of being polite or whatever. That's what they want to see apparently. You have to really let the crazy show to even get any help at all. Your word is not enough. It would be good if mental health professionals understood how good we are at hiding our problems and to not assume we do not need help if we are not presenting in the way they think we should.
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That just sounds so terrifying and mortifying, though. I wish more professionals understood that comorbid trauma and mood disorder issues are far from rare. I have always felt that my mood disorder manifests in a rather unusual way because of how heavily and abusively I was conditioned throughout childhood to hide my negative emotions and suffering at all costs. I can be sitting across from someone and feel like literally tearing their face off, seeing things that are not real on the wall behind them and itching at the freshly healing cuts under my pants, and yet look and sound pretty damn normal. I
had to be able to do that growing up, and my brain learned how, my brain
mastered that ****. Dealing with the mental health system sometimes feels like dealing with my crazy parents all over again.