Hi ThisWayOut,

Sounds like a very emotional day for you, I'm sorry,
And it must have raked up some really intense feelings for you, including a lot of pain.........but you know sometimes crying is a good way to express that/to let it out.........so if that's all you can do/there are very few words please don't feel bad about that or guilty about having tried to contact your ex T (that was an accomplishment!!). Now particularly is a real hard time for you
Of course the move is going to go on, these feelings can get easier, and ultimately the move could be the good thing you're hoping for but for now..........it might be one day at a time, and hopefully you can carry on trying to reach out??

As for a safe person/place to cry...........sometimes there may not be one really consistent one e.g. if chat lines are busy, if no-one's around here at the time, if your wife is finding it hard.........but there can sometimes be several places/people that amongst them over time come close to that, so please try to keep reaching out, if there's no-one/nowhere straight way, that doesn't mean there isn't going to be.

And this might not seem like much considering..........but the packing stuff.........maybe try to take breaks, step out, work out the "easiest" order for you (if there is one!), move the packed stuff out of your immediate environment e.g. into another room........just thoughts......

Alison