oh god, you're not the only one. i always attract loser, old men, mentally deficient weirdos and just generally VERY damaged men. i can't win, i can't even get a relationship. i've never dated more than four months. and i'm 33 and on a downhill slide physically. so, lol, you are so not totally alone.
and i too find i am never truly attracted to these men. not soul to soul.