I think she'd understand And help, I just can't get myself to talk about it. I'll try again when I see her in 3 weeks. The transference didn't really happen right away, it developed over time I guess. Because in the first 2.5 years of it all I was really sick (anorexia), and didn't have much in the way of emotions at all. I barely recognized the fact I was abused. Then I got better, and I started to feel repressed emotions and it started to snowball into this mess of transference and intense feelings. That resulted into cutting. My T actually said it toke me 2 years to actually smile or laugh with her. I assume if I was actually healthy, the transference would of developed way sooner. Like on day 1.

I have a psychiatrist, who I see every 5-6 weeks for 15 minutes and I told him about my transference. I feel virtually nothing for him, if anything it's negative. So yeah that's what my appointments with him have been about. Other than him, I don't think could get another T just to talk about my T. So I'll just ask Him.

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