ouch i have been on both lithium and AD's. not for a dx of BP but mood swings. I discontinued the lithium after a while because for one I was never really convinced I needed it and it didn't seem to make a difference. The AD's I was on for a long time until I realized how emotionally numb they made me. And I still got very depressed.

So after 10 years, in Sept of 05 I went off the prozac as an experiment to see what I was like, see what how I would feel emotionally on my own.

It turned out well for me. I still have sudden mood shifts from very anxious to very depressed. I researched therapy (types of therapy, types of therapists, etc) and recently returned to therapy. I had believed it was not helpful before. But this time I am with a wonderful psychoanalytic therapist and the therapy is very different from the Behavioral therapy I had been in before.

I"m learning how I react emotionally and where that comes from. It's very interesting and the relationship with the therapist very different than I've known before.

I just wanted to post and share. Sometimes I think it's good to make a change, to explore new ideas including new ideas about ourselves with/without meds.

PM me if you wish! and best wishes to you.