Direction,

I have tried to be a good father, mentor for the family, my children. Did the deal of civic, recreation comm, for the town we lived in. Coached baseball for 17 yrs. Everyone new me you know, stand up guy.. Put three kids thru college, everything a dad was to do..
All the things I did, are caving in on me, I was a different man back then. I got hurt, June 23, 1988. That day, my life has I knew it was over. Ppl don't get it, I'm not that man anymore. They want me to conform to something I can't be. If I could, I would'nt be here with you asking your opinon.

Is walkin away from a from a family thats totaly sets of all your triggers the best thing to do? It takes a week to get ready for a family function, and days to get over it. And I hate myself for it. Parents getting old, you don't want to miss time spent with them, but they're killin me.......

Just Lost.....................