So, I'm supposed to post my angry posts here. A nice safe spot that's out of the way from the non-angry people. A place where when we are angry we have to work on anger management under "self esteem" while everyone else gets to be anxious or depressed just for the sake of being anxious or depressed without having to work on those things under "self esteem" also. ???? Somehow this all makes sense to administration and is perfectly reasonable. Okay, I'll play along for the sake of cooperating and trying not to act like a brat.
I'm angry. I'm always angry. Most the time, I don't know why.
Is it because I'm tired and not getting enough sleep, is it because I'm lonely, is it because I'm scared? Is it a lot of different things all thrown in together?

I'm mad at myself for being me. For being who I am. I can't stand who I am. I wish I could erase me. I'm tired of being angry and not being able to get along with people because I am so angry. I think I'm a control freak. I don't know why. Things bother me that don't bother other people. It's a compulsion to want to jump over my back yard wall and take those 3 garbage bags that have been sitting out in my neighbor's yard for the last year and just throw them out. Why can't she just put them out on trash day? Gad!!! I have to look at them every day and it's really ugly. And this is MY problem because I'm an angry control freak who just can't accept that it's her property and she can do whatever she wants with her back yard.

Today I'm actually happy but there's a film of anger that covers it and makes it a little hazy. I'm trying to walk my dogs and I notice I'm angry even though I am actually happy. Why? Why doesn't this stupid anger just go away? Am I subconsciencely holding onto it because it's serving some kind of a purpose I'm actually gaining from? What do I gain from my anger? GRRRRRRRRRRRsssss? GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR???????????? I don't know, I can't think of anything right now. I'll have to think more about it.
I started getting angry while driving again. I was doing good but now once again if somebody doesn't go within 10 seconds of a light turning green I feel the blood rush to my head. I don't curse them out or anything but I do GRRRRR under my breath. It's so dumb 'cause most the time I'm not even in a rush to get somewhere.
Okay, that's all for now. I'm just going to keep spewing out my anger thinking processes and feelings here since this is where I have to do it. This will probably be the only place I'll post from now on. It's who I am. ANGRY!!!!