One of our alters, Jillian, is angry by nature. And yes, she has voiced her thoughts on getting revenge, on finding ways to hurt the person that hurt us. There were times when she described in vivid detail, what she would like to do. Not just to the person that hurt us, but to abusers she hears about on the radio or sees on tv.

We've managed to convince her to let fate take care of the one who hurt us. In the mean time, we'll do our best to live. We'll do our best to succeed, be happy, make something of ourselves. No, it isn't easy. Yes, we've wanted to quit on ourselves, and we did many times. But to quit would be letting our abuser win. To quit would be giving our abuser victory ever now when the abuse has stopped.

Jillian is less immersed on her plans for revenge and more focused on making it, living, and enjoying as many moments as she can. Because , now,in her eyes, that's the best revenge ever.