The truth is that I have an out of control gambling addiction...my marriage is falling apart. Trying to get med combo figured out and I need to get back to work. I don't even know where to start. I get a little help then self sabbatage.....I know I need help but according to my new therapist I'm still in denial, I know she is right. I need to find some strength inside of me to get better. Currently having quite the pity party!