Doesn't really make sense, does it? You would think having a delusion means you 100% believe in said delusion despite all contrary evidence. But I am seeing some searches on google that are contradicting. What I am wanting to know...is if anyone here as suffered from delusions as a part of Bipolar I Psychosis....is it possible for it to slowly develop so that at first you are half-aware that you are having delusions?

I'm asking this because since I am aware of the symptoms of my bipolar mania, I do somewhat find it odd that all of the sudden I keep thinking and truly feeling like I am this great musical composer that no one has discovered yet...and at the same time I have a logical "sane" part of me that knows this can't be true but my feelings are so strong and my thoughts so persistent it just *FEELS* true....I don't know if I'm explaining this very well.

I've already been having some other strange symptoms of psychosis for the past couple of weeks...all of the symptoms revolving around music...kind of why it feels like I must be extremely musically gifted and have untapped talent if I'm having all of these musical experiences. I don't know. So can you be at least somewhat aware of a delusion, at least early on?