I didn't email him. I texted him but nothing fancy. I reminded him that he left me with a broken bone and he said he's going to find another woman that night in the club. I asked him if this is the love that he's maintaining in his text?
I got messed up again last night, I called that mutual friend and surprisingly I found myself getting upset and angry and frustrated by her trying to tell me what Richard told her. Trying to put blame all on my shoulder and telling me that I'm not honest with her! How dare she knows what happened to me? I told her she's judging me and she's on his side. She was not there and she agreed with him. They don't get it, he's a trail lower, he's in court every single day. He put guys in the prison! I don't!
I get frustrated and angry and I can't defend myself.
Then the conclusion talking to her after an hour was that she sits with me and Richard for the last time and we say good bye to each other and end the relationship in a peaceful manner.
Then I found myself not being able to sleep at night. I thought I don't want her to be involved and I don't need to see him to say good bye! It just creates more pain and suffering. I texted her in the morning that I changed my mind and thank you very much, I don't need to see him with her! She was telling me how sad he is and he can't work and he thinks about me all the time and he's telling her how much he loves me! All BS! I told her I'm not sad. I can sleep and I don't think about him that often!
I feel strong again.
I was thinking to text him and tell him to stop all these none-sense but now I think it's useless. I just want to move on with my life.
I had enough of this guy and his unbalanced emotions. I want to focus on my own life and meet people and be positive and hopeful to find that special person in my life.
I know pretty soon I will make my own family.

Thanks for all your support....
With Love
Marjan