It took me awhile to cry in front of my T, but now it's much easier than I want it to be. I think the first time I cried she probably thought she hit the T jackpot...they WANT us to cry. It's a release. When I finally broke down and cried, my mentality was "T won." I felt like she'd been trying to get me to...aside from trying to talk me into it...I just sat there and shook, and at times dissociated. Since the tears fall freely, I don't dissociate NEAR like I used to, I still shake quite a bit though, but I know I'm still fighting with myself. I'm not a fan of people seeing me cry.... but it's all to normal with my T now.

And I don't think they judge you if you don't cry/stop crying. My T has always said that ending therapy because "I'm cured" (I'm just being silly with that phrase) will be a mutual decision. Even if I appear better, I'm not better until I say I am. Unfortunately I have a very long way to go....